Stepping out of my inner perfectionist and shifting into intuitive living

For as long as I can remember being perfect was almost expected. It w

as taught to me in various ways through my developing years whether intentional or not.

Subconsciously I learned quickly that if I became that “perfect woman” that did exactly as I was told and agreed with everyone around me, I would avoid almost all conflict and I would be liked because of my ability to be the perfect woman.

This programming has offered some difficult lessons as I have been navigating through my adult years. I spent MANY years morphing into who I was around and what I thought others wanted me to be. Never really knowing who I was and what I wanted out of a life. My decisions were always based on my perception of what other people perceived me as.

This has channelled into my relationship with food and body image. It wasn’t until recently that I really understood that I have struggled with a form and degree of an eating disorder. Being over obsessive about eating “healthy” and the negative self-talk when I would eat something

“unhealthy”. Turning to extreme diets to follow that would make me feel like I was accomplishing the healthy girl living. Let me make this clear, it is not the foods I have been eating that are the issue. It has been my mindset around them and the purpose to eating them. I have done some work in regards to shifting the narrative when it comes to food.

Allowing space for my intuition to flourish has been an awakening experience. Listening to my intuition has offered healing and relief to navigating choices that will best serve me. She’s allowed me to begin to trust myself and see how much credit she deserves. Focusing on feeling strong not fitting into a specific size. This is a daily struggle, but something I am actively working on. Understanding that a woman’s body is amazing and beautiful as it fluctuates with size throughout the month. The fact that it can even process that much change is mind boggling.

Being gentle with myself as I navigate so many different avenues of life that are in complete rebuild mode. Accepting the fact that not all my groceries will be organic or all my cleaning supplies will be natural. But when it’s possible and feels right the switch might be made. Now, in my world there are no good and bad foods. I am gentle with myself and listen to my body on what it needs and what it is craving. Sometimes it’s a green smoothie, other times its a burger and fries. Both are just considered fuel in my books. Asking myself questions like; what do I want to eat? warm or cold? Salty or sweet? Do I want a large meal or something small? How do I want to feel once I am done eating? This has helped me mentally navigate looking at all food as fuel. Listening to my intuition has allowed me to begin to heal from years of negative self-talk and begin to feel empowered in my own body.

I hope to be able to provide a community of powerful women, trusting their intuition and supporting themselves and other women in the way they need. So if you are a woman that wants to support and cheer other women on. Lets connect and tap into intuitive living together. We all need a cheerleading squad to support us on our individual journeys.